MY BIG STORY ABOUT MY BIG SIZE

MY BIG STORY ABOUT MY BIG SIZE

Being obese is not my intention nor my choice. I was born big. My weight was 4.1 kilos at the first time I came to this world. Since a baby, my parents gave me enough nutrition, even more, and stayed giving me additional vitamins even though I'd been a fat kid. Because of that, my eating desire was getting bigger, and I became a greedy kid. I ate a lot; I ate anything. What a shame! 

Since then, people knew me as a fat girl. When I entered kindergarten, I was the biggest kid in my class. When I went to Elementary School, I was still the biggest student in my class, or at school. Then, when I went to Junior High, people stuck me with that "fat" identity. But I had nothing to do with that, for that far, I could still keep my academic achievement at school; I'd been the best student in my class for 3 years. Being a fat girl was not ending yet. It continued to the year when I went to Senior High School, and my self-esteem was getting worse because of my physical appearance. Senior High School years were the years when I started to be interested in different sex, the time when I could feel nervous when talking to boys. I felt so ugly, useless, and very fat. These were the worst years I had. My academic achievement was not really good that time. I did't have bravery to be outstanding in my class. I was even so trembling just to talk to my teachers or share my opinions or ideas in the discussion sessions. As the result, I became a very common student, no achievements I made, and had a very flat life as a teenager. Poor me!

Time went by. After graduating from Senior High with an unsatisfying result, fortunately, I was accepted in a State University in Jogja through State University Entrance Exam. I was so grateful for that, since I knew that many friends of mine were not as lucky as me. They couldn't have the opportunity to enter state universities as me. I thanked God for that beautiful moment in my life. But, I don't want to talk about my college life here. Maybe I'll write it in different post.

Then I worked, got married, and I'm a married woman now. Well, they're just normal life phases.

By the way, am I slim now? Not yet... I'm still fat, overweight...

Am I sad with this? Yes, I was, but I am not. I've got my spirit back to fix my physical and mental condition as well. I think I've found the way out; yes, I've seen it there. I just need to walk, move on, and keep going on to reach it. 

I'M STRUGGLING, AND I'LL NEVER STOP UNTIL THAT DOOR, AND I'LL PASS IT THROUGH TO SEE THE BRIGHTER WORLD OUT THERE.