Really Miss It

Only with it's beautiful smile in it's sleep, the world gets so peaceful and warm.

I wish it were here with me, in my arm cuddling it softly.

When will that time come? 

MY BIG STORY ABOUT MY BIG SIZE

MY BIG STORY ABOUT MY BIG SIZE

Being obese is not my intention nor my choice. I was born big. My weight was 4.1 kilos at the first time I came to this world. Since a baby, my parents gave me enough nutrition, even more, and stayed giving me additional vitamins even though I'd been a fat kid. Because of that, my eating desire was getting bigger, and I became a greedy kid. I ate a lot; I ate anything. What a shame! 

Since then, people knew me as a fat girl. When I entered kindergarten, I was the biggest kid in my class. When I went to Elementary School, I was still the biggest student in my class, or at school. Then, when I went to Junior High, people stuck me with that "fat" identity. But I had nothing to do with that, for that far, I could still keep my academic achievement at school; I'd been the best student in my class for 3 years. Being a fat girl was not ending yet. It continued to the year when I went to Senior High School, and my self-esteem was getting worse because of my physical appearance. Senior High School years were the years when I started to be interested in different sex, the time when I could feel nervous when talking to boys. I felt so ugly, useless, and very fat. These were the worst years I had. My academic achievement was not really good that time. I did't have bravery to be outstanding in my class. I was even so trembling just to talk to my teachers or share my opinions or ideas in the discussion sessions. As the result, I became a very common student, no achievements I made, and had a very flat life as a teenager. Poor me!

Time went by. After graduating from Senior High with an unsatisfying result, fortunately, I was accepted in a State University in Jogja through State University Entrance Exam. I was so grateful for that, since I knew that many friends of mine were not as lucky as me. They couldn't have the opportunity to enter state universities as me. I thanked God for that beautiful moment in my life. But, I don't want to talk about my college life here. Maybe I'll write it in different post.

Then I worked, got married, and I'm a married woman now. Well, they're just normal life phases.

By the way, am I slim now? Not yet... I'm still fat, overweight...

Am I sad with this? Yes, I was, but I am not. I've got my spirit back to fix my physical and mental condition as well. I think I've found the way out; yes, I've seen it there. I just need to walk, move on, and keep going on to reach it. 

I'M STRUGGLING, AND I'LL NEVER STOP UNTIL THAT DOOR, AND I'LL PASS IT THROUGH TO SEE THE BRIGHTER WORLD OUT THERE.

BITE THE CAKE

Oh my God! What have we done?

It was 4.5 years ago. 

Dik Dewi's Wedding

These are my father, mother, husband, sister, and me when we attended the wedding of  Dik Dewi and Yudi, September 8, 2013 in Jogja.

And this is NGP 67 family. NGP 67 stands for Ngropoh Number 67, the address of our ex-boarding-house in Jogja. From the left are Mas Adhik, Mas Bagus (my husband), me, Ibuk Endar (our host-mother), the groom and Bride, Mr. and Mrs. Eko, Mbak Lisa (Mrs. Purwo), Mas Purwo, and Pak Edi (our host-father).

https://www.facebook.com/yuyun.andarini

I wonder where the picture of my previous post about my OCD was gone. So, I think, I need to re-post it and I have done it.

MY 3-WEEK-OCD

This is the result of my OCD diet. I've had this diet for three weeks starting in September 5, 2013. You can see the difference before I had this diet and after. I intentionally wear the same dress to show you the changes on my body in that dress. In 12 days, I'd lost about 3 kilos of my weight. In the picture, you can see my belly and the back part of my body getting slimmer, even though I was still not slim yet, but at least better in shape than before. After three weeks, today exactly, I tried to recheck my weight on the scale, and I was surprised knowing that I've lost 2 kilos more, so the total weight I've lost is 5 kilos. Wow! This is the most successful diet I've ever had. And today, I've got a new shape, stay chubby indeed, but my dress gets loose on me. My struggle, in the name of beauty and health, is not over yet. Yes, I have my own target and goal to reach through this diet. Just let's see later!

Well, I think, I need to tell you the reasons why I decided to have this diet. And those reasons are:

1. I can eat freely. I can still have my favorite food and snacks. 
2. This diet is safe backed up by a professional doctor, Dr. Fredy Wilmana, a Board Member of ECARE (European Center for Aging Research and Education).
3. It's been physically proved by the promoter of this diet method, Mr. Deddy Corbuzier, Indonesian mentalist and illusionist. Many people have also tried to experience this diet and it evidently works.

For more detailed information about this diet, you can visit these addresses:

1. http://www.readyforfit.com/#/ (free downloaded e-book)
2. https://www.facebook.com/mastercorbuzier

Completely Free Day

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Today, I had no class. I just spent my whole day at home. Well, I went shopping in the morning, to a traditional market in the town with my husband. I've got very fresh fish to cook, our favorite fish. Then, I cooked them, simple cooking. It's the first time I made Japanese "katsu" from fish which is usually made from chicken. But finally, it tasted good. My husband, as well as my parents in law loved it. Yes! I made it! 

In the afternoon, since I was very free, I tried to do something creative. Yesterday, I found an interesting object in INTERNET, a file stationary made of unused carton box. My husband helped me find the box. I really enjoyed my time with that carton box. I've done it, and I'll post the picture next time. 

Okay, I think that's it. See you on the next post!